So while I in no way endorse deliberate overdosing of pheromones, there have been a few times I've accidentally exposed myself to far more of a chemical than I intended to - most notably through discovering bottles broken in transport. The extreme effects I experienced through overdosing, while generally unpleasant, have been incredibly informative, helping me to understand where a pheromone is "going" if that makes sense, by seeing how it expresses itself at its most extreme. I could read everything on the Net but it wasn't until I felt these things for myself that I truly understood them. So I'm going to keep a record of some of my observations here, and invite anyone else to share their overdose observations if they like.

Date: 4/7/2012. Product: Happy Ending with BAM - contains beta androstenol, copulins.

Nooooo!!!!!! *cries*

I transported my perfume collection from one house to another and this one didn't make it! I opened my bag to find everything covered in oil and smelling faintly of cops and flowers. I went through everything fearful of what I had lost... and it was this one I haven't even had a chance to really test it yet beyond smelling it. *cries* Must be more careful with how I transport my LPs in the future...

So my experience this evening has been a bizarre one. I had to wash off every bottle (and so now a bunch of my labels look soaked and horrible ) and clean out the bag, and in the process I inhaled a serious overdose of fumes. I became really lightheaded and felt stoned. I haven't ever tried recreational drugs so I don't know what it should feel like, but I imagined this was how it would feel. I felt really dizzy and whenever I moved my head the world spun. I was swaying as I walked, like I was drunk. Yet I felt really alert - over alert - overstimulated. I could feel my eyes were opened wider than normal and I was moving faster than normal, like my mind was working faster than my body. I felt pretty nauseous and desperately wanted to regain control of my body and feel better, the feeling was horrible and a bit scary. It is 4 degrees here, but I went outside wearing just PJs and spent a good ten minutes breathing in the fresh air before I began to feel better, and only then noticed how freaking cold I was!

Some serious emotional side-effects here too. I posted on The Bitching Post, and suddenly ended up teary. Normally I don't just kind of cry just like that, I will be depressed about something for a while before I reach the point of tears on it. This was just instant, like, oh that sucks, BAM there are the tears (excuse the pun). No walls, no mental barriers to break through to reach the emotional vulnerability, I was just suddenly bawling. And it was gone just as quick, although that may be because my flatmate (new flatmate, and a good one this time I hope!) got home just then. I wiped up the tears before she got in the door and within those thirty seconds before she reached me I was completely cleaned up and looking normal. We've just spent the last few hours chatting, and I hope she didn't notice but I've been shaky the whole way through and talking faster than normal. I didn't want her to leave, I was desperate to talk to someone. She tried to go to bed a few times and I kept making more conversation, which she was ok about, and pretty chatty back, although she did eventually have to go as it is getting close to 1AM and we both have work early.

Now that I think about it, before she got here I was talking and talking to the cat, almost like I just wanted to hear my voice and put my thoughts and feelings and any random thing going through my head to the world.

Still shaking and wide-eyed and not sure I can go to sleep yet. The shaking almost feels like an emotional kind, not just like too much caffeine shaking, but like I'm overexcited. Feeling the world is an overwhelming place and everything is either too exciting or too scary. Sorry if this post is all over the place, I guess I am still under the effect of the overdose!

Date: 23/8/2012. Product: Red Lace - contains alpha androstenol, estratetraenol, copulins

So I got a lovely package from a lovely Love Potion trading buddy and it was packaged all tightly with bubblewrap and everything, but whoever transported it still managed to break half the contents. It was like carnage going through that envelope. It was NOOOO not my Red Lace! Anything but that! Noo the Touch of Cerise! It can't be! NO NO NO NO NOT THE PASSION AND DESIRE! *cries* *cries more* It was truly a traumatic experience. Horrific even.

So that was a nasty shock but then... I was out for the rest of the day driving around and shopping, and I started to feel a bit funny. Got all shaky and anxious and panicky. Then I felt a bit high. Had trouble remembering things, like what I was supposed to be doing. Starting bursting into random nervous fits of giggles. I knew it was irrational, but my body was doing things not of my own accord. Heart pounding, fingers shaking, mind racing. I can to consciously work to make my thoughts slow down and follow one another in a logical order rather than jumping all over the place. I kept pushing past people in the shops, even though I thought I was moving slowly. I had this horrible feeling that I was entirely helpless and vulnerable in this huge, complicated world.

I was walking back to my car after visiting a shop and couldn't find my keys rightaway. I completely freaked out. Just about panic attack. I now know what people who claim to have panic attacks go through. It took all my willpower to remain in control of myself. They were in my pocket of course, but the 30 seconds (?) it took to find them feel like the worst of my life.

So on the plus side, I have learnt some interesting things about the effects of overdosing on alpha androstenol and estratetraenol. And next time I handle broken bottles I'll try to remember to wash my hands and air out the car afterwards. I was in such an odd frame of mind it took me a good hour to even work out that I should do that.

Reps!! This thread can be very useful! If I overdose on something I'll report here