Tought i would tell a story about a woman i been in contact with trough a dating site.
Actually, i am not shure why i have this profile on this site. I am still not in a position where i feel ready for a serious relationship. I have some shit i need get together before i involve others to my life. And this site have mostly southern people signed up. So travel to see anyone is an issue. But i log in frequently mostly just for fun and to look around.
Last December i stumbled upon a woman who is simply drop dead sexy, sweet, beautiful, classy and exotic. There was also no doubt this woman had one of the most visited profile on the site and was constantly among the sites top twenty. Her photos revealed slightly more than whats usuall from women at this site. Because of this, she had written in her profile : "My photos are sexy because I know that men love with their eyes, and I want my man to find me here, I want to be out of competition with other girls, I do not want all the men paid attention to me, but I do not want to miss out my man."
Even tough, i had decided not to contact anyone, i decided to write her. This is what i wrote :
"You are right, men love with their eyes. Actually i have lovely eye's myself
But i dont think that is a bad thing. As i think beauty comes from inside. You see, would you look so wonderful and sexy if you where just an angry bitter person who never bothered working out and never considered living an healty life? I belive a woman is beautiful because she know how to take care of herself. And if a woman know how to take care of herself, wouldnt she know how to take care of her man or children? So if a man find you beautiful its a good thing. Actually i think you should be proud to know you are the most sexy woman on this site. At least i know it would have been wonderful if my future wife found me so sexy she would have trouble keep her hands away from me. Hmmmm... what a good tought.
Sorry if i am wasting your time, because i am not flirting with you. The case is, i am not ready to see anyone at this moment. I want to be serious in my intention and its not possible to see anyone for me now.
Not shure why i wrote you. Just couldnt get your profile out of my mind. Anyway i wish you the best of luck finding your man, i am shure there are plenty to choose from. Maybe you are still around next summer, in that case i will send you a letter myself. "
After a day, she responded to me. She commented on what i said, and was also clearly curious why i couldnt see her. The convo had started and i replied by telling her i am not to be trusted and cant promise her anything. But i might also have added a few hints of me being interested. I got severall letters from her, and i could clearly see she also was intelligent.
The big problem : I actually couldnt go see her. I have a hard time right now and struggle to make the end meets. No way could i afford going anywhere. And no either did i want her to come see me. She wanted to, but i refused. I also told her there would be better choices in other men.
For the last month, i havent been on this dating site before today. It turned out i had several letters from her in my inbox. In the last one from Monday she was clearly dissapointed. She didnt cut me right off and still hope to see me, but she also said she found out i am not to be trusted and think i dont stand up for what i say.
So what is going on with this???? Have i used some sort of reversed psychological kind of stuff? I say dont trust me, so she start trusting me. I say i cant promise you anything, so she thinks i promise her the entire world?
Anyway, it shure worked well telling them "Stay away from me!!"
I think i am able to save money for going next month to see her. So maybe i should just make an initiative?